i am a little bit sad today. going home always makes me a little sad b/c i always expect sadie to be there. (even though i know she won't be) she has been missing for almost 10 months now, which is so incredible to believe. i know that it's hard for a lot of people to understand, but i miss that dog every day of my life. i am pleased to say that i no longer have to wear waterproof mascara. (thank God for little things) i do love janie (the cell phone eater) with all of my heart, but sadie was/is (depending on what day it is i waver on whether i think she is with another family or wild coyotes/snakes got her) such a special and important part of my life. i was in such a fog for so long after she was first missing, and I honestly don't know how i functioned day to day. well, it was with the help of my very sweet family and my very loving and supportive friends. sadie was just such a part of my life and eveything i did. i suppose i will always feel like a little bit of my heart is missing. ok... i was just missing my sadie alot today.... h
